Honestly, though, I totally need to call myself on this more often than I do under normal circumstances. Holding myself accountable is something I know I have to work on and something I have at least been trying to do on a daily basis. To do things like accept that not everything is going the way I might want it and knowing it doesn't mean it's the end of the world as I know it. I can accept change, swallow my pride, and find a way to function without making the lives of everyone around me miserable because I feel miserable.
So, I have, in list form, things I have done in the past couple months/weeks/however long it's been in order to get myself caught up a bit.
- I've been doing a lot of stuff for myself. Trying to find a job can be exhausting and I know I feel like I am stretched thin nine times out of ten when people ask me how I'm doing. Especially in this coming week, I'm blocking out some time for myself so I don't feel like I'm going insane from everything I need to be doing. My promise to myself in the next two weeks is to take time for me, which may mean naps during the day and finding something fun each day instead of dwelling on the bad things. Knowing that I have people in my life who are a phone call away is helpful, too.
- Job hunting has been somewhat successful. I'm at least landing interviews and getting answers when I hound people down to find out if they want to continue on or not. All else fails, I'll continue to work at The Target (as Josh called it last time he was there with me) and take on another job part-time to make ends meet. Medical bills are expensive, yo.
- Boardwalk Empire is kind of epic. I love it and am excited to know that, when I get off work tonight, I'll be coming home to watch another episode with the fella as we catch up to the most current season.